Expectations of healing others seem to be part of who we are as women. I know it is common to explore the why for many of us as healers, mothers and teachers. You may be one or all three. I don't know who will stumble upon my thoughts here; maybe it is the first time you've thought of your role as a healer and what is expected of you, or perhaps you have thought it out into a dissertation or a book. Here I am thinking of my role as a healer and a teacher, and I decided to open my business as a Pellowah and Reiki healer after many years of waiting to permit myself.
Simultaneously, I thought it would be good to teach as a substitute teacher. I have faced violence, angry words, illness, poverty, sexual harassment from the children in my first week. I saw it embedded in the boys' implicit misogyny, and when I brought up women's month, I was bombarded by boys asking why there isn't a Men's month.
The school's idea is that I am to accept the violence etc. and call security, so I did. It echoed the training I have experienced from professionals and other women my whole life, "just call security."
According to NPR and other educational professionals, behavioural issues are at an all-time high in our post quarantine world. Therefore, I believe that institutional sexism and misogyny is something to contemplate.
As this piece is my first blog entry, I do not know how long I want to make this. However, I want to point out that as a woman, I know I have been trained to put others first and not to put myself first or make space for my healing. Therefore, my empathy will affect all teachers and educators experiencing a violent work environment.
And yes, of course, I believe a Pellowah or Reiki session will help you repair from the despair if you have it, and if not, I believe it will help you re-energize.